Thoughts in the cold

When we start thinking, if at all necessary, we may realize that denying does not actually lead to any final statement or conculsion. So does accepting, of course, unfortunately.
May it be that we deny persistently that people are what we need and infuriatingly stubborn we continue to believe that we can be just perfectly fine the way we are – all by ourselves? And in the very moment, as those thoughts are buzzing in our heads, in a search of a human contact, we capture ourselves into the most deadly trap of affection. I wonder why is that? But my thougths are so sluggish that they lag behing my feelings with ages. I cannot escape from my feelings though. I can force myself to think in a direction, you know: “Now, let's think positively” kind-of-fashion. Before I thought I can also do it with the emotions but I just fooled myself for a while, which may actually be a nice device to keep me occupied not to think about other stuff. After all it seems like a lot of thought, ah? No answers yet...